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The crowd in the front row were already jumping at Seiko's guitar rift,  she greeted them with the begening melody to "Rely on me too," Tomo began then with his rythmic bass, the crowd was catching it, Erin's follwed the melody. that's the way Seiko wrote this song, Bunny on the second guitar came in that swiveling way she plays it, all this shile Shinobou's pretty keyboards has been playing and then my cue, I sing. "I follow you like those suicidal sentences look for an end with a dot" the crowd is singing along , cheerfully I show the side of me this stage knows, a fire in me rises and Ii follow the rhythm in my boy, in my voice, this is what Michio calls my 'pure soul.'

"Like a solitary rose decors an elegant study, I'll be waiting to forget you and forget why I needed to..."
 the lights flutter through the crowd, my face they are everywhere, and I feel as though we are stellar, it gives me a thrill and brings a beautiful sound of out my mouth, vocalizing through part of the song, and the crowd's energy makes me live in the music even more.

"Everyone having a nation of a time?" Seiko shrills into the mic, she usually does the mc's, she pokes fun at Tomo's scarf that looks like a cat clinging to him, positive reactions at the back of the stage she dares to step forward and retunes her guitar while I entertain the crowd.
"Here were are again, Hello Tokyo, did you miss us?"
lots of hello's and I love yous and we missed you  scream  back at me, the occasional calling of my name and I smile for then, The next song was one I wrote for Haruka's birthday, it was lovey but then I noticed a boy in the front row with a sign that read it was his birthday as well, so as the song began I talked to him, "I spot a birthday boy, here's a little song to wish you good fortune on this day."
I sat on the stage in front of his and began to serenade him, he blushed like crazy and sang along with me everyone did, it was cute to see the way the crowd treated him after that, I like to notice things like this, "Come whisper in my ear, I know today's your birthday, dearst do you want  a kiss now or a kiss later? Come, whisper in my ear, what is it that you want on this most fortunate days of my life, stars are born from utter choas, but those planets born from utter miracles, you are my miracle, my Saturn, let your rings devour me, such glorious rings,Come whisper in my ear, what gift shall I bestow you??" The song ended on a vocalization as well, but the next I would be playing on the piano for a while so I got up and walked to it as it ended.

"I took a sleepless train, an illusion, I saw your face inside a gem, it was a trick of the light of middays sunlight, it was a poem of love to travel with..."

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