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// I wish you felt the way that I still do.

Regret is the companion of greif, and within it I felt the strength inside his words, but I couldn't take  it anymore. Taking Shou's hand and removing it's grip as if each finger was holding a hesitation asking me "why?" That expression that stabbed at my heart took over his face and I had to look down to avoid it. "Why?" the words formed from his voice was solemn, I felt so cold, and could only shake my head as I stared at the pattern of the cotton on his shirt as I answered him. "This past year...you doubt every single thing I've said to you, you leave me, avoid me, break off all contact with me, you turned my heart inside out and now you want more, even more than you wanted when you asked me to stop seeing Haru," I raised my head then, and saw his sparkling eyes, but I couldn't stop myself now, "What is it about me that isn't good enough for you Shou, your illusion of me, the real me, which is better? Tell me so that I don...