A Billion Starry Nights

Pleiades At this moment, it was painful to breathe, even if I search in the mirror I can't feel my own existence with certainty With sadness along my cheek, I look up, out of the window In the night sky, there are stars that can't shine alone I was unable to notice. Even the sound of my own heart It just has to become someone else's rhythm, and stay there without changing I was searching for the meaning of living, the light seemed to fade But I don't forget the warmth of your hand, that I had ascertained The night of shedding tears passed, in the midst of that, I opened my hand I can fly, if I close my eyes... if the two of us could wish for that The overlapping Pleiades that can't shine alone I'll smile with you here again, without changing so sweet pain... be as one, forever&ever the charming things i find in her, with every second she acknowledges this thing I am in, warming, and changing the cold inside of it, I fell into the sweetness poets call the fee...

love. a hysterically ridiculous excuse to make one person special , and to have a warmer feeling in the contemporarily mundane everyday of our lives. I wanted to never know such joys, with my track record, and the oh so very charming displays of a so called love I grew to know, I knew I wanted no part of it. Slowy, however, I find it very hard to accept the things that human beings call feeings whenever he pays attention to me, when he’s near me, or the way my heart beats as if it’s a race car on days when I know I am going to meet him. this illusion of wanting something close to my heart, to suspend the pain of everyday a little less, to ease a meaning into waking up, it is an attractive idea, and at the same time I’m finding it very hard to hesitate. Haruka showed up early to rehearsal, and so me tomo and he were the only ones there, I was in the middle of tuning Seiko’s red guitar, when he offered to do it for me, I grined and let him tune it. Tomo had gone out to smoke as his jac...