A Billion Starry Nights

HOWEVER written & composed by: TAKURO Here in this place where the soft wind blows... right now, the two of us slowly begin to walk Thousands of times we've met on this earth and parted the same amount of times in our lives There are those who are merely passing through on the same place without knowing what's in eachother's hearts And even though time's closing by so much that I loose sight of my dreams beyond my reach In a town where everything seemed foreign to me You give me strength to run through darkness What I named love is spilled all over time, I named it after you my "eternity" I couldn't convey to you, anyhow, using only words But now, I understand what affection means I want to make you happy... the future in your heart I will love you so the tears of sadness won't wet you I couldn't figure out when love began. instead that summer afternoon I turned my back on you But now, I that know that was a sin of childish days, idle and waver...

He told me to meet him here, at the old studio in Downtown. I wanted to avoid this, but I know I have to be here to hear him, because what happened in Chyuku, was something I know he could have protected her better. I should've known, but I'm a fool that way. I was sitting behind the drumset making a resonating sound on the symbols before the door slid open, and a voice called to me. "Do you did get here," I stopped my playing as he sound echoed in the small room and I greeted him with a wave and he slid the door closed behind him. "Hey, you told me you wanted to talk to me," He leaned on the mirror next to m, and spoke. "Yea, but before that I need you to tell me something," I set the drum sticks down on the amp behind me, "Shoot," He took his glasses off and stared at me for a minute very intensely before he spoke. "Are you serious about this?" I didn't understand, "About what??" "About her," I understo...

Shou....my love letter to you is a sad excuse indeed. I'm sorry, about everything I could never live up to. It is true however, that in you I felt a love unlike what I knew before, it filled me up in warmth and above all happiness. I never thought I'd laugh the way you made me laugh, or smile, or sigh, or breathe, I wasn't expecting this, though, I don't regret it. These years by your side, never knew I could live them I don't want to loose you, I don't want to think about loosing you, but the way things are, I fear you'll leave me, I fear you'll divorce me, and never want me again. No matter how much I loved Haru, I love you as well, I will never compare you to him, nor have I ever because I know you two are different; the love inside of me for both of you is different and unchanging, and fiercely flaming, though I still remain in love with Haruka, I am still in love you, I know that is unchanging. I want to be better for you, because I've been a ro...

I've tried to contain it, but it just keeps digging inside me, it keeps tearing at the damp earth that is my heart, and when it becomes hallow, even the smallest of drizzles burns it. I honestly don't know how long its been, just that I have no recollection of when I was last hungry, or even standing up. I gave up on listening as well, and with this bandage over my eyes, I found a way to see nothing as well, but the more time I spend here, the number I become, sometimes I think about what Haru would say if he saw me this way, and it gives me reason to take away this disguise and face the world outside without him; but I do not have the courage to do so. Another day and my body is telling me that I need water, that I need food, that I need to move, but my mind refuses to do so, it's become a thing now, not part of a living being, and frozen in this state. I can scarcely listen to whoever is outside my door, it is usually Takuro, or Shou, or Seiko, but sometimes my mind has ...

We had driven her from the cemetery to the house, she still wasn't talking clearly, the twins were both sobbing and clinging to her, but all she could do was silently cry and hold them. She'd pet their hair and hold them tightly but say nothing more. It was then Haruka's voice came to my mind, "Take care of her, you're the only one who can, just like I did." I had been wondering about this, but not fully understanding it's meaning, I haven't had a chance to truly talk to Saga, he's too destroyed over Haru's absence, like I am. Lost within a deep abyss of missing my best friend, a brother, feeling like a limb I once had was still moving but noticing it's not there, that's what it felt like. This void that surrounded us, we wallowed in it's valley and recalled him in our memories, what else could we do? I had an itch to loose myself in the drink again, but looking at Adagio and Zestubou, I couldn't. I needed to face this, the way...