Growing, I noticed the feeling was different. Arising from the east, the great blue curtain began to rise, between the smoke and the darkness the murmuring of the voices came into focus, several things mixing inside of them, like the raging wind on a field, the force unbroken by anything just being carried on long grass and reeds. It was completely appropriate, after all this was a long time coming, my soul was here, bounded to the place where i found it for the first time in my life, the air was heavy, and the intensity of the microphone as I waited for my cue. I looked over at Seiko and then to Tomo before the curtain reach half-mast, the same look i have probably, like my wish came true, I closed my eyes and began to sing.
This is the last song Charlotte write for Haruka, after Shou leaves her she decides that life is better being by herself, and living her life for Haruka and her sake, Zestubou Nation rejoins after their one night reunion was one of the biggest shows a stadium had scene, fans demanding them return, they decided to grace the stage and release three more albums. This is the last album, it's called "The Gift of the Black Hole." Meaning their gift since they will break up the band indefinitely afterwards and they all continued their solo projects, Charlotte would continue her career and continue to manage her artists as well, It wasn't a choice i wanted to make, but if I didn't, I would never have been able to take charge of my life again, I'm already 40, I knew somehow that the things inside my heart would become my prison, but Haruka would want me to live again, I guess for the first time I realized the true meaning of those words, it took Zetsubou's love life to make me realize that, even though I know they had a terrible childhood because of me I always tried to be best for them, when I wasn't going crazy that is, and they said that they've forgiven me, but I still haven't forgiven myself. So many things i want to give them, and Layla, I really hope she will be fine with Shou, until the court meeting I can't claim all of her rights, but she's told me she wants to stay with Shou, either way, I want some rights to her, I wonder why she hates me. The Concert continued my thoughts ordaining my mind pausing we shared a little of ourselves with our loyal fans, Tomo told them of his partnerdship with Laura, and their child Amelia, whom he named after Amelia Earhart, Seiko promoted her latest band, Shikagu Mistake, Erin thanked the fans and announced that he was asked to teach music at a universtiy which he accepted, Satorou thanked everybody for coming and even though he was a support member he felt their love as well, he always had lots of fangirls but he never wanted to become an official member because of his real band 'Yams for Sale" which was really popular int he Indie scene. Usagi also spoke with us, she thanked everyone and informed of her current designer line which was being launched that winter, it was already in many Visual Kei stores to please enjoy it. I shared with them, a piece of my soul, I never talked about it with them, I felt like they deserved an explination. I took my microphone and walked out to the edge of the stage, flashing lights and cheering, twinkle of cell phones all over the stadium, I felt loved, like these were my children as well, I didn't know them yet they accepted me so well. "I didn't think anyone would still remember us, and we're so old too," I laughed and so did everyone at my silly joke, "I remember when I was in Los Angeles a few years ago, and I was still in a bad place, nothing really mattered to me when it came to singing again, I thought it was a curse really, because if I hadn't been a songstress, then maybe things would have turned out differently, that's what I kept thinking all these years, I regretted the best parts of my life, and saw the blessings as curses, I lived in a hell where he didn't exist, and I'm sorry if I put any of you through pain in my selfish decision to stop making music." I heard a response from the crowd, various "it's okay," "We understand," "no need to apologize," "Apology accepted" "we miss him too," "I love you Chara," "Don't worry Chara," "Things are going to be okay!!" "Zombie Nation Love!!" Various replies to my odious explanation, I bowed to them and thanked them, "When Seiko asked me if I was willing to sing again, I really doubted it, but after finally checking my fanmail that piled up over the years, I'm really glad I only got a few death threats, I honestly thought there would be more, so thank you for that as well," Everyone laughed in some sort of way, "I want to thank you all for that, because it is for you that I returned, in all my life there was a saying that Haruka used to say me that I've never forgotten, he used to say, "You can be anything in the world you want to be, a chef, a writer, an actor, a pilot, a fireman, a clerk, but you can't deny who you are inside you were meant to be a vocalist, so stop running from it, and just accept your fate." I know now what his true meaning was, and I can't hide from that anymore, even though after tonight we will no longer be a band, we will always be a family, and I will continue to make music, if you'll have me." A silence type of applause then happened, as if they saw through my heart and understood me to the very core, I bowed again and Seiko came up and hugged me, and then Tomo, before we knew it Erin came in as well, Usagi and Satorou clapped, we continued then and played one of our first hits, "Cry of the Unicorn!" It was a rough melody Tomo trashing on the bass as Seiko shredded her guitar wailing and my voice came in soft, vocalizing, Erins drums were fast and brusk, the symbols banging
"A Redeemer, screaming ashes of a forgotten face at night, oh be forgiven
Bleeds, bleeds, bleeds, do you want to live forver?
Screams screams, Do you want to scream forever?
Bleeds Bleeds, Wanna know why, the unicorn cries so beautiful
Larara~~ Larararara~~
Distorded my vision of the upper lights, flashing first
my eyes have died,
Scream scream.. do you wanna drink from my neck?
See see do you wanna taste my poisoned kiss?
Scream scream Trick me again, the unicorn cries so beautiful
Scream scream scream....
Wanna know why, the unicorn cries so beautiful~~~
It was an oldie and the fans loved it, jumping and cheering I shot them my signature move on stage as Seiko's guitar screamed and Erin's drum hit it's last mark. Tomo did a solo and his bass as the lights lowered, the crowd cheered and we headed backstage for a Vitalwater and a towel, Seiko and Usagi followed me, Zetsubou and Adagio were there, just came from the veiwing box and gave me a hug. "Mom, I can't believe how cool you are!" Zetsubou picked me up and swung me, "Woah, i'm old i'm old!" he put me down and Adagion signed to me, "very very cool momma!" I signed back to him, "thank you precious" he hugged me, Michio came over as well, "You have three songs left for your encore, and you haven't written them down on the set list, is this... a surprise or something?" he looked nervous, but as I looked over at Saga, I realized that Shou was also there, he was smiling at Seiko, just then as Seiko got up and over to me, my eyes locked with Shou's he looked earnestly at me, he stood up, but in my nature I turned around and headed back to the stage, I nearly fell over because someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back, I recovered my balance and looked behind me, it was Zestubou, "Mom, don't run away please," I couldn't help it, my head was shaking, "I don't want to do this here," Shou was next to me now, "Charlotte, please." we were already divorced, what more could he want? I looked back at everyone, all eyes on me, why does it always have to be me, I nodded, Zestubou let me go and I followed Shou to the dressing room, "Everyone get out," a few staff members were there and left ina hurry, he shut the door behind me, I leaned against the bulb lighted mirror, "The crowd is cheering for an encore, and this couldn't wait?" I snapped, but he remained calm. "If you didn't want me to come, why did you leave me this?" he showed me the ticket, I was a little surprised, "I didn't think you'd find it." I was actually hoping he never did, when I gave him the divorce papers I slipped it in there, but since he got it, it means that he signed them. "You can be so sweet when you want to be." my heart was yearning then, I didn't want to hear those words from him, I was in danger. "I can be alot of things Shou, remember? I can selfish, and deluded, and crazy, and-" he suddenly came towards me, before I knew it his lips were pressing against mine, my anger subsided, and I felt my heart not beating rapidly, but it was calm, like the smell of my room in the house I grew up in, that instant comfort and love, Shou...why do you have to feel like home to me? I wanted to push him away, but he wrapped his arms around me, wrapping his tounge around mine, I was lost in Shou. Finally he pulled away, and pressed his nose against mine. This...it couldn't be. "You can break hearts so easily, and you need to take responsibility for mine, you have been my whole Charlotte, and I've never expected anything from you, I'm sorry for what I put you through, but you hurt me as well, so much I never thought I could recover from it, so I looked at the divorce papers, I was overcome in a type of, limbo, I didn't know what to feel, and then, your ticket slipped out. I got to thinking, why did you put this here? If you never wanted to see me gain, why did you invite me to see you here? It could have been a regular ticket, but it wasn't, why do you do the things you do Charlotte?" He took my head in his hands and I gazed into his brown eyes, they were searching for something in mine, so subtlely they moved as if tracing every line inside of mine, I was in danger, I look away and shut my eyes, and then...there it was. He let me go.
He headed towards the door then, and looked back to me. "I'm always going want you Charlotte, no matter you do to me, no matter what I say, no matter where I go, you're always on my mind. I feel something for you, I can't even put into words, if it suffices, then you must know, I ardently love you, I don't mind being second best, if you need me, you know where I am." I couldn't take my eyes off of him, he stared at me for a full minute, his eyes...sollen, and lonely, he pulled away from my tearing face, and opened the door, walked out, and it shut behind him slowly as i watched him walk away, he put his right hand to his face and quickly pulled it away, then it shut, making a noise that startled me. I leaned against the mirror, the bulbs burning me, flinching away, the door came open again, i jerked my head awa from the crying woman and Seiko came inside, 'It's Charls, we have to do this, have you thought of the songs yet?" I stared at her and collected myself, I fixed my hair int he mirror and wiped my tears away, breathing too deeply I nodded. "Yeah," my voice shaking. "I got them," I walked out of the door with her and we made our way back to the curtain, there the rest of the band was waiting, and the anxious crowd was screaming in unison "En-co-re~!!" over the sounds of the cheering I told them the three songs were were closing with, upon hearing the title of the last one, they looked worriedly at eachother then at me. "What?" they seemed to say in unison. "Is it going to be a problem?" I asked half smiling, tears still flowing, I wuickly wiped them away and they broke out into a smile, "Well, let's rock this bitch," Tomo shot a wink at Seiko who nodded smilling, "Let's do it~!" Erin let out, ruffling my hair. The lights were lit and Usagi went out first followed by Seiko, Erin, Tomo, Satorou and finally I walked out, waving at everyone, I didn't even change like the other members, but I knew what I wanted to do. The first song was one i wrote for Zestubou and Adagio when they were kids, it was soft, and fun, it set the mood, I looked over to the vip box and saw them looking at me, I shot at them, and they chuckled giving me a headbangers salute. smiling i finsihed the song, the feeling still strong in my chest the second song was a loversoul song, one that Tomo loved when we played it and it was the most highly rated lvoersoul cover from the encore tours, I looked over to the curtain, and there was Michio, tears in his eyes, because of the meaning of this song, smiling, he nodded over at me, and i bowed to him, a little teary eyed, I ended the song holding out the last note. The crowd was moved and some people I saw were crying at well. I looked out to the crowd, where was he? I couldn't see him. I looked over to the curtains, the vip box, where were you? Satorou's keys were like a harmonica leading into the break,Seiko followed with the quick yet gentle water like flow to the bass, and then my voice that's when I spotted him in the 4rth row, right infront of the stage, as if it was just us, I sang to him. "At this moment, it was painful to breathe," The crowd reacting with gasps and screams this song, they knew its history " even if I search in the mirror I can't feel my own existence with certainty" he stared at me, smiling mesmerized ;I sang this song to him, unable to break way, " With sadness along my cheek, I look up, out of the window ,in the night sky, there are stars that can't shine alone." he walked out of the crowd then, and got into an isle, towards the exit, "Shou!" suddenly I called out, he stopped where he was, "I was unable to notice. Even the sound of my own heart It just has to become someone else's rhythm, and stay there without changing" He looked back to me and I walked to the edge of the stage where he stood I looked down at him, but he shook his head, tears in his eyes and began to walk away "I was searching for the meaning of living, the light seemed to fade," It happened then, I jumped off the stage and the crowd reached out for me, but I was on an empty isle, I walked towards Shou then, and grabbed his arm, he stopped, realizing I was there "But I don't forget the warmth of your hand, that I had ascertained" he looked at me, as if thinking I wasn't there, mouthing "Is this real?" I nodded as the tears blurred my vision of him and everything around my voice still strong,surprising me,"The night of shedding tears passed, in the midst of that, I opened my hand," I took his hand in mine. " I can fly, if I close my eyes... if the two of us could wish for that" Incredibly, he smiled, the words of the song he wrote for me, touching me, and my voice still not breaking, I bravely faced Shou, pouring out the love i still felt for him in this melody, I let the microphone then, creating a huge thudding noise, without thinking, and disregarding anything happening around us, I took his face in my hands and kiss him, I kissed him with everything i had, and I felt the passion in his tender mouth, my named was written there, all over there. My heart then beating crazily assured me of something I had always doubted, that this is love. In everyway, in every thing I am, and anything I ever was, I recognized it, Shou, you are my life. Suddenly he pulled away and picked up the microphone, he continued the song, taking my hand , " The overlapping Pleiades that can't shine alone, I'll smile with you here again, without changing." we walked towards the exit, I looked back at Seiko, and Tomo, Erin, and realized that Zestubou and Adagio were there, Michio, Saga, and Layla, and they were singing it, "so sweet pain...be as one, forever&ever" The crowd was cheering, and as I looked back at my smiling husband, I remembered everything we went through to get here, and something shined and bothered my eyes, but we were in the darkness at the back of the stadium now, in front of the door, I blew a kiss to the crowd, he let the microphone drop, opened the door. I was lost inside his smile, in that moment I thought of the words Haruka told me after he left Los Angeles, "I've met you once, so even if I die, I will know you in the next life." That was true for him, and it was true for Shou now, I can't love them both with my heart at half mast, but I knew now that, it didn't matter, because even if my love for Haruka would be eternal, my love for Shou would also be, it was the same amount, not less, but Shou was here now, to ignore his heart, would be to ruin my own.
"Hey Haru.... do you remember that time by the sea? Do you remember the day we came here, to this place, the place where we came from, and would return to when our time was done? Did you find it? The thing you've been looking for?"
This is the last song Charlotte write for Haruka, after Shou leaves her she decides that life is better being by herself, and living her life for Haruka and her sake, Zestubou Nation rejoins after their one night reunion was one of the biggest shows a stadium had scene, fans demanding them return, they decided to grace the stage and release three more albums. This is the last album, it's called "The Gift of the Black Hole." Meaning their gift since they will break up the band indefinitely afterwards and they all continued their solo projects, Charlotte would continue her career and continue to manage her artists as well, It wasn't a choice i wanted to make, but if I didn't, I would never have been able to take charge of my life again, I'm already 40, I knew somehow that the things inside my heart would become my prison, but Haruka would want me to live again, I guess for the first time I realized the true meaning of those words, it took Zetsubou's love life to make me realize that, even though I know they had a terrible childhood because of me I always tried to be best for them, when I wasn't going crazy that is, and they said that they've forgiven me, but I still haven't forgiven myself. So many things i want to give them, and Layla, I really hope she will be fine with Shou, until the court meeting I can't claim all of her rights, but she's told me she wants to stay with Shou, either way, I want some rights to her, I wonder why she hates me. The Concert continued my thoughts ordaining my mind pausing we shared a little of ourselves with our loyal fans, Tomo told them of his partnerdship with Laura, and their child Amelia, whom he named after Amelia Earhart, Seiko promoted her latest band, Shikagu Mistake, Erin thanked the fans and announced that he was asked to teach music at a universtiy which he accepted, Satorou thanked everybody for coming and even though he was a support member he felt their love as well, he always had lots of fangirls but he never wanted to become an official member because of his real band 'Yams for Sale" which was really popular int he Indie scene. Usagi also spoke with us, she thanked everyone and informed of her current designer line which was being launched that winter, it was already in many Visual Kei stores to please enjoy it. I shared with them, a piece of my soul, I never talked about it with them, I felt like they deserved an explination. I took my microphone and walked out to the edge of the stage, flashing lights and cheering, twinkle of cell phones all over the stadium, I felt loved, like these were my children as well, I didn't know them yet they accepted me so well. "I didn't think anyone would still remember us, and we're so old too," I laughed and so did everyone at my silly joke, "I remember when I was in Los Angeles a few years ago, and I was still in a bad place, nothing really mattered to me when it came to singing again, I thought it was a curse really, because if I hadn't been a songstress, then maybe things would have turned out differently, that's what I kept thinking all these years, I regretted the best parts of my life, and saw the blessings as curses, I lived in a hell where he didn't exist, and I'm sorry if I put any of you through pain in my selfish decision to stop making music." I heard a response from the crowd, various "it's okay," "We understand," "no need to apologize," "Apology accepted" "we miss him too," "I love you Chara," "Don't worry Chara," "Things are going to be okay!!" "Zombie Nation Love!!" Various replies to my odious explanation, I bowed to them and thanked them, "When Seiko asked me if I was willing to sing again, I really doubted it, but after finally checking my fanmail that piled up over the years, I'm really glad I only got a few death threats, I honestly thought there would be more, so thank you for that as well," Everyone laughed in some sort of way, "I want to thank you all for that, because it is for you that I returned, in all my life there was a saying that Haruka used to say me that I've never forgotten, he used to say, "You can be anything in the world you want to be, a chef, a writer, an actor, a pilot, a fireman, a clerk, but you can't deny who you are inside you were meant to be a vocalist, so stop running from it, and just accept your fate." I know now what his true meaning was, and I can't hide from that anymore, even though after tonight we will no longer be a band, we will always be a family, and I will continue to make music, if you'll have me." A silence type of applause then happened, as if they saw through my heart and understood me to the very core, I bowed again and Seiko came up and hugged me, and then Tomo, before we knew it Erin came in as well, Usagi and Satorou clapped, we continued then and played one of our first hits, "Cry of the Unicorn!" It was a rough melody Tomo trashing on the bass as Seiko shredded her guitar wailing and my voice came in soft, vocalizing, Erins drums were fast and brusk, the symbols banging
"A Redeemer, screaming ashes of a forgotten face at night, oh be forgiven
Bleeds, bleeds, bleeds, do you want to live forver?
Screams screams, Do you want to scream forever?
Bleeds Bleeds, Wanna know why, the unicorn cries so beautiful
Larara~~ Larararara~~
Distorded my vision of the upper lights, flashing first
my eyes have died,
Scream scream.. do you wanna drink from my neck?
See see do you wanna taste my poisoned kiss?
Scream scream Trick me again, the unicorn cries so beautiful
Scream scream scream....
Wanna know why, the unicorn cries so beautiful~~~
It was an oldie and the fans loved it, jumping and cheering I shot them my signature move on stage as Seiko's guitar screamed and Erin's drum hit it's last mark. Tomo did a solo and his bass as the lights lowered, the crowd cheered and we headed backstage for a Vitalwater and a towel, Seiko and Usagi followed me, Zetsubou and Adagio were there, just came from the veiwing box and gave me a hug. "Mom, I can't believe how cool you are!" Zetsubou picked me up and swung me, "Woah, i'm old i'm old!" he put me down and Adagion signed to me, "very very cool momma!" I signed back to him, "thank you precious" he hugged me, Michio came over as well, "You have three songs left for your encore, and you haven't written them down on the set list, is this... a surprise or something?" he looked nervous, but as I looked over at Saga, I realized that Shou was also there, he was smiling at Seiko, just then as Seiko got up and over to me, my eyes locked with Shou's he looked earnestly at me, he stood up, but in my nature I turned around and headed back to the stage, I nearly fell over because someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back, I recovered my balance and looked behind me, it was Zestubou, "Mom, don't run away please," I couldn't help it, my head was shaking, "I don't want to do this here," Shou was next to me now, "Charlotte, please." we were already divorced, what more could he want? I looked back at everyone, all eyes on me, why does it always have to be me, I nodded, Zestubou let me go and I followed Shou to the dressing room, "Everyone get out," a few staff members were there and left ina hurry, he shut the door behind me, I leaned against the bulb lighted mirror, "The crowd is cheering for an encore, and this couldn't wait?" I snapped, but he remained calm. "If you didn't want me to come, why did you leave me this?" he showed me the ticket, I was a little surprised, "I didn't think you'd find it." I was actually hoping he never did, when I gave him the divorce papers I slipped it in there, but since he got it, it means that he signed them. "You can be so sweet when you want to be." my heart was yearning then, I didn't want to hear those words from him, I was in danger. "I can be alot of things Shou, remember? I can selfish, and deluded, and crazy, and-" he suddenly came towards me, before I knew it his lips were pressing against mine, my anger subsided, and I felt my heart not beating rapidly, but it was calm, like the smell of my room in the house I grew up in, that instant comfort and love, Shou...why do you have to feel like home to me? I wanted to push him away, but he wrapped his arms around me, wrapping his tounge around mine, I was lost in Shou. Finally he pulled away, and pressed his nose against mine. This...it couldn't be. "You can break hearts so easily, and you need to take responsibility for mine, you have been my whole Charlotte, and I've never expected anything from you, I'm sorry for what I put you through, but you hurt me as well, so much I never thought I could recover from it, so I looked at the divorce papers, I was overcome in a type of, limbo, I didn't know what to feel, and then, your ticket slipped out. I got to thinking, why did you put this here? If you never wanted to see me gain, why did you invite me to see you here? It could have been a regular ticket, but it wasn't, why do you do the things you do Charlotte?" He took my head in his hands and I gazed into his brown eyes, they were searching for something in mine, so subtlely they moved as if tracing every line inside of mine, I was in danger, I look away and shut my eyes, and then...there it was. He let me go.
He headed towards the door then, and looked back to me. "I'm always going want you Charlotte, no matter you do to me, no matter what I say, no matter where I go, you're always on my mind. I feel something for you, I can't even put into words, if it suffices, then you must know, I ardently love you, I don't mind being second best, if you need me, you know where I am." I couldn't take my eyes off of him, he stared at me for a full minute, his eyes...sollen, and lonely, he pulled away from my tearing face, and opened the door, walked out, and it shut behind him slowly as i watched him walk away, he put his right hand to his face and quickly pulled it away, then it shut, making a noise that startled me. I leaned against the mirror, the bulbs burning me, flinching away, the door came open again, i jerked my head awa from the crying woman and Seiko came inside, 'It's Charls, we have to do this, have you thought of the songs yet?" I stared at her and collected myself, I fixed my hair int he mirror and wiped my tears away, breathing too deeply I nodded. "Yeah," my voice shaking. "I got them," I walked out of the door with her and we made our way back to the curtain, there the rest of the band was waiting, and the anxious crowd was screaming in unison "En-co-re~!!" over the sounds of the cheering I told them the three songs were were closing with, upon hearing the title of the last one, they looked worriedly at eachother then at me. "What?" they seemed to say in unison. "Is it going to be a problem?" I asked half smiling, tears still flowing, I wuickly wiped them away and they broke out into a smile, "Well, let's rock this bitch," Tomo shot a wink at Seiko who nodded smilling, "Let's do it~!" Erin let out, ruffling my hair. The lights were lit and Usagi went out first followed by Seiko, Erin, Tomo, Satorou and finally I walked out, waving at everyone, I didn't even change like the other members, but I knew what I wanted to do. The first song was one i wrote for Zestubou and Adagio when they were kids, it was soft, and fun, it set the mood, I looked over to the vip box and saw them looking at me, I shot at them, and they chuckled giving me a headbangers salute. smiling i finsihed the song, the feeling still strong in my chest the second song was a loversoul song, one that Tomo loved when we played it and it was the most highly rated lvoersoul cover from the encore tours, I looked over to the curtain, and there was Michio, tears in his eyes, because of the meaning of this song, smiling, he nodded over at me, and i bowed to him, a little teary eyed, I ended the song holding out the last note. The crowd was moved and some people I saw were crying at well. I looked out to the crowd, where was he? I couldn't see him. I looked over to the curtains, the vip box, where were you? Satorou's keys were like a harmonica leading into the break,Seiko followed with the quick yet gentle water like flow to the bass, and then my voice that's when I spotted him in the 4rth row, right infront of the stage, as if it was just us, I sang to him. "At this moment, it was painful to breathe," The crowd reacting with gasps and screams this song, they knew its history " even if I search in the mirror I can't feel my own existence with certainty" he stared at me, smiling mesmerized ;I sang this song to him, unable to break way, " With sadness along my cheek, I look up, out of the window ,in the night sky, there are stars that can't shine alone." he walked out of the crowd then, and got into an isle, towards the exit, "Shou!" suddenly I called out, he stopped where he was, "I was unable to notice. Even the sound of my own heart It just has to become someone else's rhythm, and stay there without changing" He looked back to me and I walked to the edge of the stage where he stood I looked down at him, but he shook his head, tears in his eyes and began to walk away "I was searching for the meaning of living, the light seemed to fade," It happened then, I jumped off the stage and the crowd reached out for me, but I was on an empty isle, I walked towards Shou then, and grabbed his arm, he stopped, realizing I was there "But I don't forget the warmth of your hand, that I had ascertained" he looked at me, as if thinking I wasn't there, mouthing "Is this real?" I nodded as the tears blurred my vision of him and everything around my voice still strong,surprising me,"The night of shedding tears passed, in the midst of that, I opened my hand," I took his hand in mine. " I can fly, if I close my eyes... if the two of us could wish for that" Incredibly, he smiled, the words of the song he wrote for me, touching me, and my voice still not breaking, I bravely faced Shou, pouring out the love i still felt for him in this melody, I let the microphone then, creating a huge thudding noise, without thinking, and disregarding anything happening around us, I took his face in my hands and kiss him, I kissed him with everything i had, and I felt the passion in his tender mouth, my named was written there, all over there. My heart then beating crazily assured me of something I had always doubted, that this is love. In everyway, in every thing I am, and anything I ever was, I recognized it, Shou, you are my life. Suddenly he pulled away and picked up the microphone, he continued the song, taking my hand , " The overlapping Pleiades that can't shine alone, I'll smile with you here again, without changing." we walked towards the exit, I looked back at Seiko, and Tomo, Erin, and realized that Zestubou and Adagio were there, Michio, Saga, and Layla, and they were singing it, "so sweet pain...be as one, forever&ever" The crowd was cheering, and as I looked back at my smiling husband, I remembered everything we went through to get here, and something shined and bothered my eyes, but we were in the darkness at the back of the stadium now, in front of the door, I blew a kiss to the crowd, he let the microphone drop, opened the door. I was lost inside his smile, in that moment I thought of the words Haruka told me after he left Los Angeles, "I've met you once, so even if I die, I will know you in the next life." That was true for him, and it was true for Shou now, I can't love them both with my heart at half mast, but I knew now that, it didn't matter, because even if my love for Haruka would be eternal, my love for Shou would also be, it was the same amount, not less, but Shou was here now, to ignore his heart, would be to ruin my own.
Haruka, I will see you again, but for now, I will grant your wish, and be happy on my terms, and I chose Shou. With that in mind, I followed him out the door a feeling in my mouth, like a smile was about to break out the distant sound of a melody that talked about the rare thing called Happiness.
Epilogue.
Epilogue.
(Yes the third song was played, Chara returned after a few mins with Shou they sang the first song they wrote together, in Koreatown, that run down apartment complex, the fan in the window on a summer night where they expressed their hopes and dreams for the future, the song about not letting your past define you, and not being afraid to search for a reason to be happy in the world. Chara let the memories of her first love stay in her life and together Shou and her family celebrated Harukas life and the legacy he left behind, never forgetting his memory but also living a new chapter in their life where Shou and Chara continue their own story with love and understanding and patience, they remain together for their lives raising their kids and seeing them have families of their own.
Chara writes a book about her life and experiences, she adds chapters she finds in Harukas Laptops, his diaries that detail the same experiences from his point of view. A telling of two of the most Influential musicians who crossed oceans to reach each others dreams. A fitting life, Chara publishes these stories years after the ending of the books, keeping her life and music separated, continuing to sing still into her later years and together with Shou but Zetsubou Nation never reunited again.)
"Hey Haru.... do you remember that time by the sea? Do you remember the day we came here, to this place, the place where we came from, and would return to when our time was done? Did you find it? The thing you've been looking for?"
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