A Billion Starry Nights

Apart from the piece of glass sticking into my arm I was fine, I wanted to be fine, but as I heard Haruka call my name for the last time, " Mars..." another sound took over my pressence a loud wooden breaking sound, splinters flew around me, with other large chunks that scattered in the darkness I could hear them, and feel them, and there above me he stood, my soaring one. "Oh God, Charlotte..." was the first thing he said, I couldn't see him but I knew it was him, I'd recognize that faint scent of Richmond cologne he wore. More words were spoken then, but I don't know what they were, they were muffled, rather, my head was spinning in that darkness, and suddenly-- She was so skinny when she was born, Charlotte nearly killing herself after slipping on the glass fragments of a picture of Haruka, yeah I went back. she said she slipped, but I knew better, she wasn't eating anymore, she locked herself in that closet knowing she wouldn't return, for...

A strange name, stranger than I thought was whom it belonged to. My mom had moved back to Hakodate and she left the house in L.A. to Adagio, I was taking a break from my tour it was finally over and i just wanted to relax specially after breaking up with Ama, the last thing I wanted to do was be in Tokyo or in Japan for that matter. I got my things from the airport and took a cab to the house, traffic wasn't that bad, but the ups and downs of the hills really got me sick, when I got to the mansion it was like another world, and I just wanted to take a swim and begin my four month break. The break was stratigically dated so that I could finish my last year at my collage USC, I heard my dad was a bit of a genius when it came to astronomy and that he gave that up to pursue music and he never got a chance to finish his studies. I think I might have inherited that gene because for some reason I can name every constillation and track stars and make charts like it's childs play. In ...

It was too good to be true. Impossible. Unprecedented. Unreal. A lie. I opened my eyes, surely last night was a dream, but there was the sight I had longed for, and that warmth, that even after all these years is so eerily familiar to me, and could never be filled by anyone else, no matter how much I wanted it to be. "Saturn," the words were like a breathe escaping my mouth, but he gently inhaled in and out  the soft morning breeze tousling his long hair across his face, some of it bruhsing against my cheek, and the tickling sensation let me know I wasnt dreaming. "My Saturn, How?" I must have repeated that a few times, my heart didn't know what to do, last night I thought I might have died for sure, this felt too real, and here I am next to the universe I thought I lost to a black hole, where have you been? What you done witout me in your life? Did you fall in love again? Why has it been so long? I want answers from you, I want to know everything you did and ...

I'm tired... so tired of all of this. Last night I lost my voice in the middle of "underworld" I looked out into the crowd blurs, dotted blurs no faces, and the flashing lights the followed, my eyes leading to a big screen across the crowd Tomo walking over to me, Seiko talking to Erin a worried look on their faces, before Tomo could put his hand on my shoulder he said something, maybe my name, I'm not very sure. I lost my mind, and stormed out of the Arena, I must have ran past the cars and the crowds because when Shou caught me I was covered in rain already, I pulled away from him, and his words that I couldn't hear, i didn't want to hear them. Coursing through me was a cosntant feeling of longing, that verse set me off... "there's so many things I want to give you but I can't do that anymore." It rang inside my head, and I kept running, that verse from the old house lingering inside my head, 'run away....runaway," I hit the stati...