// New Plot begining to end.

Prologue:
Chara returns home from a concert at her friends house, she sneaks in to the window and comes out to the kitchen for something to drink.
Her father begins to abuse her and it is described poetically, things that happen are replaced with analogies. He's going too far, her mother and brother arrive at the house, they witness the scene, the brother pulls the father off, but it takes the mother also to restrain him, Chara is bleeding from the head, the glass has been crushed into her face and her arms, she crawls and struggles back to her room, the screams as she hears her brother fighting off her father, she takes what she can and climbs out the window, and runs the reader is left with her closing monologue, "Keep going. There's only death back there. Keep going. Keep breathing. I don't want to die here. I want to die some place beautiful."


In the beginning:
Chara is in the hospital, she wonders about the scars on her arms, we learn that she's grown and she foreshadows to the reader that this is not a tale of happiness. This is a tale of a girl who refused to die on her childhood home's floor. She foreshadows that you might think it's a happy thing, love, but it's a trap, and dangerous, if you can handle disappointment and want a warning, then continue reading, either way, I have to let you know, about my Saturn.

Chara's in the hospital, she's out of it, flashes of sirens and a warmth, her angel she calls him, no one caught his name, but he left his jacket. Chara's sister a nurse at that hospital arrives with her fiancé her supervising Doctor, he advices Artemis that they should report her father, but Art convinces him to tell the cops that it was a random group of guys they stole things from her and left her for dead, Chara can't remember anything just getting off the bus when she saw the beach.
as she recovers she listens to her ipod which contains her favorite music, Loversoul, she sings and it attracts a guy, he's volunteering to help out the hospital, turns out his brother is her sister's fiancé.
Chara has her sister stay with her and her roommate while she figures out whats going to happen, at that apartment complex she meets Seiko whom upon hearing her sing wants to enlist her  as a singer in the band she's making.
She invites her to a club, Chara invites Tomo whom upon meeting Seiko instantly click, they decide that they should start a band together, [Seiko on Guitar and composition, Tomo on Bass and effect, Chara on Vocals and sometimes piano,] they star to rehearse at Tomo's place which turns out is also his brothers place, but he's gone to Korea t introduce Artemis to his parents and for vacation.  Upon rehearsing Seiko and Chara become best friends unpon learning more about eachother, they click on fashion, music taste, books, pop culture and more. Most of all Loversoul. Their first show is just two weeks later and they sound great, they just need a drummer, Seiko has been begging her cousin Erin, but he will only go if a guy he likes shows up, to which Seiko repeats "its impossible but the idiot doesn't see reason." Finally desperate Seiko invites him to hang out for one rehearsal promising that the guy will be there but of course he doesn't show up just Saga and Shou, whom upon meeting Chara falls instantly in love with, but being a suave playboy , Shou is just playing his cards with her like he does with the other girls. being a charmer, Seiko and Tomo warn Chara that Shou isn't boyfriend material.  However Chara, whose only known abuse is drawn by how dutiful he is of her, and she falls for it.  The night of their first show, Halloween Tomo throws a party his  place (where they are all currently living)  that night Haruka and Chara meet, the connection for Haruka is instant, upon meeting Haruka of course Chara thinks he's so handsome and cool, but as the party progresses she see's him flocked by girls, and rumors that he has a scary girlfriend and that's why he rejects all the girls. Chara pursues Shou whom is oblivious f her feelings, but Haruka manages to catch her and they have a conversation that captures her. And slowly they begin to become friends, at the end of the night he quotes Anne Rice for her, her heart hurts, and she talks to Seiko. "Oh HARUKA? Yeah, he's a fucking mental case, what girlfriend? Nah, that idiot is too stupid to have a girlfriend, too smart to not scare them away with his smart talk, but hey you weren't scared at all!"
The week progress and Haruka and Chara beomce closer he offers to help her get her GED and walks her home after she gets off work.  This is how they progress, then suddenly she begins to sing Loversoul and he joins in , Chara and he make plans to go to a concert but that night there's a party at Shou's and his place this is where  Chara confesses to Shou, whom rejects her harshly. Upon hearing from a drunk Seiko that Chara's inlove with Shou and that she's going to confess he gets really depressed and begins to think that he shouldn't hesitate in his life, he digs out the acceptance letter and ponders on the stairwell. Coming up the stairs Chara depressed over her rejection see's Haruka very depressed ad she hugs him, telling him not to be sad, and they both sort of cry for a short while, he asks her why she's so sad and she tells him basically, everything. About why she's living with Seiko and Tomo in LA, why she wears long sleeves all the time, how she was so stupid to think any guy would be interested in her Shou of all people. "i'm not asking for pity from anyone, but...I just don't think I can handle rejection anymore, there's no one on this planet who would want me, and I'm starting to understand that now, because I'm no good." as she unfolds her troubles to her, he kisses her. "I've been wanting to do that since we met. And it had nothing to do with what you did, or why you're here, you're here now, and you are amazing." She doesn't believe it. "I thought you didn't want girls, like... you don't..kiss anyone." he laughs and asks if that was Seiko. she nods. "Yeah, I'm like that, but I started to feel life could be something more with you, I want that, will you let me be someone in your life, more than a friend?" She tells him ok, to take it slow, please. Their relationship evolves, for a long time they don't kiss again, Chara slowly recounts the abuse she suffered with ever stage they pass, and those memories are erased by Haruka's love.
They have a good year in Los Angeles before that day, battle of the bands at the House of Blues. Glorious Jane win, they get spotted by an idies band company and offered a deal in Japan, but they have to leave now. Haruka makes it clear that he doesn't want to go, not without Chara, but Chara is still 17. He's 19 (so is Seiko, Shou and Saga) Chara cannot go, and she talks to Seiko whom agrees that she wouldn't be good there, she needs to stay with the band "You could be someone with us, we just need more time, Chara, we could go to JAPAN, but we need to grow as a band, don't leave for love and be weak, you need to rely on no one but yourself."  Chara agrees, and tells Haruka to leave, they recall a story in Anne Rice, how Pandora and Marius met again, by coincidence and chance, but that they loved eachother through out. "I will come for you if you don't come for me first." he pormises but she sings to him a parting song. "Don't promise me anything, I don't want to cling to a fleeting dream, I want you to shine so bright that will be my happiness, I love you, I have loved you, I will love you, I want you to shine not matter the distance we'll walk."  His name means distance.



Months go by, Haruka's viewpoint :
He's at a hotel on a beach, the concert last night has him restless thinking about Chara, he goes down to the beach and recalls their trip to sanfrancisco, he looks out to the pacific towards los angeles and becomes very depressed, Shou and he meet that morning, and he tells him that theres a girl who keeps wanting to work with them, but Haruka is just annoyed, but Shou tells him, "she reminds me of Chara." that catches his attention, his view ends with him recalling the man hanging from the ceiling.

Back to Chara in the real day, someone comes in, asks her how she's doing, (were lead to believe it michio) she smiles and recalls, the day she met him, and how stupid she was after Haruka left.

"I thought I would be stronger, but it’s hard to be strong when you can't swim and your island is gone."
She shares her music with Michio, he’s the lead and music writer for her favorite band, they talk about their lives and they develop a personal relationship based on the idea of a perfect sound, and a perfect song. He meets with her at his Los Angeles office downtown and interview the band,  Siko and Tomó was essentially star struck but Seiko is skeptical as to why such a big artist would want to help or sign this local band when they don’t even have an EP or a mix tape to give him. Chara asks these question and   

// How long?

"Was I never supposed to notice that you knew?"
I was caught, he caught himself by acknowledging it, unafraid of my reactions, this was different, this was a Shou I hadn't seen in years.
"You were never supposed to say anything, I got conscious because of that song."
he snickered, and sighed, "yeah, you were supposed to, I was supposed to pretend like this whole thing," he gestured at the gazebo and the string lights above us, "wasn't real, that this was some delusion brought on by the stress of being in love with you, that this nightmare would stay in my dreamland." he began to shake his head, and the gleam in his eyes, it hurt me because my best friend was puring it all out, and I could not move from where I was. "Shou,...what do you want from me? You know where I stand, you know how I feel, what do you want?" He came over to me and put his hands on mine, grasping at the bouquet of gold and pink flowers Seiko brought me moments ago. that hurt expression there, his lips parted like he wanted to say the words, but his mouth closed and instead he leaned in and kissed my forehead. "I want you to be so immensely happy that you question whether or not you're in a real world. I want you to walk down those stones and find a new path that you'll take together. But I also need you to know, that I exist, that this heart exists for you, I don't expect you to run away with me, I haven't earned you that way." He kissed my hand with my wedding band on it, the pain from his words touched me and I still could not move form where I was, I looked away then, and painfully he was shaking and it got to me, and I felt his heartbreak, I swear I could hear it as he spoke brokenly. "I will always love you, in ways that make no sense, but the heart is so stubborn, and I wont get over you, but this is me telling you what I've always wanted to, I wish you happiness , and I wont tell you that I'm waiting here for you always, because  I hope that you wont need that, that you two will always be in love and together and shinning. I love you that much, that's all I want, for you to know that I exist like this, is that okay?"
I pulled my hands away and hugged him, he was cautious and carefully put his warms around me. "It's not okay, but its not something I can control for you, because I know that feeling well. I see you, but I also see the man you are, and I know that all that love will be returned to you, not from me, from someone who will chose you." I kissed his cheek and began to cry. "I was his the moment we met, and I never thought today would happen, but I love him so much, that its impossible to dismiss you because he wouldn't even like that, and I know that. Love is beautiful and it can do so many things. and you will find that extraordinary love, just not with me,"

Shou stood in silence, staring into my eyes, his eyes letting the tears swell. He embraced me, I hugged him back. "I'm sorry, I had to let this out today, but I needed you to know, for certain, I will defeat these feelings with time, I hope I can gain your friendship back with time and your trust." He let me go, I didn't know what to say, he was gone. I leaned against the frame of the gazebo, in my dress, the feathers on the train rustled as the wind picked up. I asked myself what could I do about him, nothing really, I am spoken for...I always have been, I will find sometime to deal with what happened in this room today, but it will not be now, I'm getting married and he's waiting for me....my only soul, Saturn, my Haruka.