A Billion Starry Nights

Pulling into the venue was a spectacular sight, already fans were lining on the street talking to eachother, looking slightly tired, some still excited, I wonder how low they've been waiting there? Light music playing the inside Zepp where the bar was located roared out there three staff members and a velvet rope guarded the glass doors, still closed they promised that when that sun set magic would drug them into a euphoric state filled with the sounds of a Nation hungry to perform. How long has it been? I'm aching for that stage as well, I look push the button to let down the window, some fans notice, they call out to me yelling my name and hello's, sweet nothings that mean everything to me, I thank them and say hello back. We pull up to the back entrance where only a few fans standing flock towards the van, "Finally!" Seiko calls out, she urges Emily  who's already opening the door and shooing the fans to let us through to hurry up. "Finally we're h...

My song is missing. all of my songs are missing. I've searched all of my journals and they are also missing, I slept in the studio working on my music and when I awoke this morning everything was missing, the only thing left was my blue fountain pen and my guitar case, my guitar on the case beside me, but my work was all gone. I got out my cell phone and was almost hysterical, my heart beat was racing and the wrath inside of me aflame, I wanted there to be an explanation for this, there had to be, I sent everyone a massive text asking if they had seen it. I rushed outside the corridor and asked Maria if she had seen anyone go into my studio but she wasn't there.I had come back last night to get all my songs from my office, but eveything was gone. I ran up to Saki's office, he was busy in call and not surprised to see me. "Yes, yes, move them to the vault, she just walked in." I felt something entirely wrong with this,  to have the clearance but he told me to calm...

I checked my phone today, two messages from him. "Morning, wondering if you thought about what I said the other night, don't worry I'm in no hurry." the other read : "Lunch today?" I brushed my hair before I answered, Zetsubou Nation has a morning radio hosting gig, me and Tomo that is, but that will be over by 10, and I'm nervous about what will happen after...what would he think of me who just last night the media spotted at my old Apartment complex just as Masake was also there with that woman, I didn't know he was there I went to get some stuff I was missing and happened that they got another place just above my old one, or old one, jerk. I wonder if he's...worried?  I got to the lobby and waited as Emily pulled the car around, Tomo was just joining me, I greeted him with a hug and he squeezed me, 'come on, let's go wake people from their slumbers" I laughed and agreed with him, we got into the car headed towards the station. ...

The light was coming in from the window, a crack maybe, or a lamp post outside in the middle of the night, I wasn't sure, but I felt the coldness beside me on the bed the sheets pulled completely engulfed me and I noticed that my source of warmth had  left my side without me knowing. Where'd he go to? I searched the wall to the side, the clock's handles glowing in the darkness, it was 4:o6 am. I remembered then that he was hosting today, of course he couldn't stay, I wonder if I made him late? Something horrible pounds inside my stomach, regret or guilt, it's painful, and I take a deep breath in the darkness hoping it will go away, but it only makes me think about Haruka's words last night. We had just left the engagement party, and I still haven't had time to think about leaving Masake in Paris, it was all rushed after Seiko told me she was having her party that the company insisted on as to not draw negative comments from the press, so the morning that I ...