A Billion Starry Nights

It's been almost a week now....and he still hasn't contacted me. I want to know how you feel Haruka, are we just....in limbo? When you held me so closely, when you're eyes gazed into me over that moonlight, I asked you to be kind to me...but you're still so very far away. I don't know what to make of it really. Something inside of me is calling out, telling me that I want to be with you, but I don't know how to reach you, maybe you lost my number? I don't want to ask it from someone else, specially since it was my number you got, why didn't you give me yours? Besides, I don't want them to know when I could be wrong...am I wrong? Tell me so, because this waiting is tearing apart my patience. Rehearsal in the morning passes by like  a breeze , already two weeks on tour and I can easily control the invislbe crowd, as Seiko's wailing guitar notes resonate inside the hall, and Tomo's back up singing along with hers recall my chorus and we decide...

Second stop. - Azayama Blitz. Two weeks on the road. Two days here. After the argument I got into with Haruka I've been avoiding him so after the train arrived at the station I just stuck behind Tomo. Seiko had been hanging out with Glorious Jane because she doesn't really care about what the fans or the media thinks and since this is a mix festival with five stops  it would be normal for all of us to be together and talking, but I didn't want to talk.  I just wanted to be left alone, and with Tomo he always seems to give me that but in an aware state.  On the train he let me lean against him and he listening to music and read a book because he can't sleep on trains, the entire time I looked out the window and read some fan mail on my phone. I am appreciative of the fans, but recently I've been getting a lot of hate mail from Masake's fans and my own. A very popular phrase in these messages is "Stupid Bitch," and "Junkie". The rumor was...