Haruka is singing in the shower lately.
I'm not sure why he rarely did it before, but I pretend to sleep and hear it, when he knows I'm awake he's silent as the grave. It's a rare thing to hear, but since Glorious disbanded Saitou has been trying to get Haruka to realize his potential of becoming not only a band leader but a singer, I have noticed it as well, he's almost as good as Shou except his voice is softer and charming, I feel as if I will be carried away with the breeze when his notes are somber and mellow, but that's his style, which is a tad bit contrasting to his trashing style on the guitar, almost like a demon when he plays, but he's an angel when he sings. I've told him this many many times, often bursting into the shower and embarrasing him, so today I only call it over the water "you should go solo~" but he hums loudly and wont listen to me, I'm hoping Saitou will I'm tired of telling him, he comes out with a towel wrapped around his body all fuming from the water's heat and his bangs stick to his head, it's too cold for me, keeping my distance and slipping past him to the shower I comment, "maybe we can sing together someday, not a duet that sounds lame but a song we're meant to sing together." I think of Happy Swing, looking over to him as his shoulder playfully urged me to sing as he thought up a melody for the crowd to hear while the sound people fixed the chart board. If he was officially a singer would he have started it, I know Haruka can lead, I just want him to figure that out on his own. He gives me a smile and shakes his head, "I'm out of body wash so I used yours, and by the by, that is a duet my dearest." I shoot him a look and shoot him down with my imaginary gun, "Duet sounds lame, but we could be lame together if you just would give it a try, you could really shine." I shot him a kiss and closed the door behind me, today I wouldn't see him until later, by the time I exited the shower he'd gotten dressed forgot his scarf and sent me a message telling me his schedule for the day and that he forgot his scarf,I forgot to push him harder, but alas I was never much of a leader myself, there's a reason Seiko and Tomo are cosplayed more than I am, they just have natural charisma a leader requires, I have natural fear, something a coward posses, a hungry coward who is late for my doctor's appointment.
I wanted to push him but if I did it, somehow I felt like cheating.
He was singing again three in the morning but not in the shower, he was on the balcony, I could tell from the fresh breeze coming through the crack of the door. I'm glad we have a huge apartment because it echoes through out the house and I'm in the rec room spaced out over a couch with an open laptop on my lap with Seiko's melody playing in a loop and unfinished lyrics, just then I recall what I was going to write and quickly type it down, the clacking must be loud in the place because I hear the singing falter then continue. He's not singing a cover but one of his original songs, I know that because I hacked into his lappy, (by me I mean Tomo) and looked at some of the projects he's working on, not only writing music but lyrics as wells, songs about L.A. and now and being alive and wanting to fly and wanting to shine, but this one is about me.
I enjoy his angelic voice and make my way to the bedroom to go to sleep when his phone goes off. I reach over the mantle as I pass the kitchen and pick it up, it's a text message from a number that isn't listed in his contacts, "I'm waiting for an answer. You know you want me c; " Something inside me suddenly turns on like a water hose and I can't stop what happened after, I dash over to the balcony and slam the phone down on he veranda. "What?" he calls out "Is your life important to you, dearest?" he flicks his cigarette off in the distance and laughingly turns to me and leans in to kiss my temple, but I pull away too angry to have him kiss me. "What you saying?" I hold his phone and show him the message, "What's this? a death wish? Who is this?? " He reads the message but his mood isn't affected and somehow I feel silly even before the words come out of his mouth, "Oh... it's Seya, rememeber i told you I'm trying to get a new drummer, but i don't know about him, he wants a better offer than I got him." My resolve became to falter and I tried to brush it off as if I wasn't planning to destroy him seconds ago. "Ahh, well then, I see." I leaned against the veranda defeated and embarrassed I heard him chuckle but as much as I hurt my pride I made a total fool of myself, suddenly he was over me embracing me and leaned his head against mine. "Somehow that pety jelousy of yours makes me feel extremely loved," he bites my cheek and I hiss at him, "ahhh, that hurts you know!" "Your suspicion hurt me, " "Where?" I insist on fighting, Im not sure why. "everywhere, my Chara." He kisses my cheek now, "I am quite aware that the day I cheat on you will be considered the last day I live, at least on this earth, would you expect anything less?" That admission made me realize that the posibility entered his mind before, "and me? Would you destroy me?" I turned to see his pretty green eyes but they seemed genuenly hurt by my question. I could tell he was about to run away but I grabbed his arm, I couldn't hurt him like this. "You really think I'm capable of something like that, after....after going through it? No, I wouldn't wish that on anyone, specially not on my heart, on my you."
I'm not sure why he rarely did it before, but I pretend to sleep and hear it, when he knows I'm awake he's silent as the grave. It's a rare thing to hear, but since Glorious disbanded Saitou has been trying to get Haruka to realize his potential of becoming not only a band leader but a singer, I have noticed it as well, he's almost as good as Shou except his voice is softer and charming, I feel as if I will be carried away with the breeze when his notes are somber and mellow, but that's his style, which is a tad bit contrasting to his trashing style on the guitar, almost like a demon when he plays, but he's an angel when he sings. I've told him this many many times, often bursting into the shower and embarrasing him, so today I only call it over the water "you should go solo~" but he hums loudly and wont listen to me, I'm hoping Saitou will I'm tired of telling him, he comes out with a towel wrapped around his body all fuming from the water's heat and his bangs stick to his head, it's too cold for me, keeping my distance and slipping past him to the shower I comment, "maybe we can sing together someday, not a duet that sounds lame but a song we're meant to sing together." I think of Happy Swing, looking over to him as his shoulder playfully urged me to sing as he thought up a melody for the crowd to hear while the sound people fixed the chart board. If he was officially a singer would he have started it, I know Haruka can lead, I just want him to figure that out on his own. He gives me a smile and shakes his head, "I'm out of body wash so I used yours, and by the by, that is a duet my dearest." I shoot him a look and shoot him down with my imaginary gun, "Duet sounds lame, but we could be lame together if you just would give it a try, you could really shine." I shot him a kiss and closed the door behind me, today I wouldn't see him until later, by the time I exited the shower he'd gotten dressed forgot his scarf and sent me a message telling me his schedule for the day and that he forgot his scarf,I forgot to push him harder, but alas I was never much of a leader myself, there's a reason Seiko and Tomo are cosplayed more than I am, they just have natural charisma a leader requires, I have natural fear, something a coward posses, a hungry coward who is late for my doctor's appointment.
I wanted to push him but if I did it, somehow I felt like cheating.
He was singing again three in the morning but not in the shower, he was on the balcony, I could tell from the fresh breeze coming through the crack of the door. I'm glad we have a huge apartment because it echoes through out the house and I'm in the rec room spaced out over a couch with an open laptop on my lap with Seiko's melody playing in a loop and unfinished lyrics, just then I recall what I was going to write and quickly type it down, the clacking must be loud in the place because I hear the singing falter then continue. He's not singing a cover but one of his original songs, I know that because I hacked into his lappy, (by me I mean Tomo) and looked at some of the projects he's working on, not only writing music but lyrics as wells, songs about L.A. and now and being alive and wanting to fly and wanting to shine, but this one is about me.
I enjoy his angelic voice and make my way to the bedroom to go to sleep when his phone goes off. I reach over the mantle as I pass the kitchen and pick it up, it's a text message from a number that isn't listed in his contacts, "I'm waiting for an answer. You know you want me c; " Something inside me suddenly turns on like a water hose and I can't stop what happened after, I dash over to the balcony and slam the phone down on he veranda. "What?" he calls out "Is your life important to you, dearest?" he flicks his cigarette off in the distance and laughingly turns to me and leans in to kiss my temple, but I pull away too angry to have him kiss me. "What you saying?" I hold his phone and show him the message, "What's this? a death wish? Who is this?? " He reads the message but his mood isn't affected and somehow I feel silly even before the words come out of his mouth, "Oh... it's Seya, rememeber i told you I'm trying to get a new drummer, but i don't know about him, he wants a better offer than I got him." My resolve became to falter and I tried to brush it off as if I wasn't planning to destroy him seconds ago. "Ahh, well then, I see." I leaned against the veranda defeated and embarrassed I heard him chuckle but as much as I hurt my pride I made a total fool of myself, suddenly he was over me embracing me and leaned his head against mine. "Somehow that pety jelousy of yours makes me feel extremely loved," he bites my cheek and I hiss at him, "ahhh, that hurts you know!" "Your suspicion hurt me, " "Where?" I insist on fighting, Im not sure why. "everywhere, my Chara." He kisses my cheek now, "I am quite aware that the day I cheat on you will be considered the last day I live, at least on this earth, would you expect anything less?" That admission made me realize that the posibility entered his mind before, "and me? Would you destroy me?" I turned to see his pretty green eyes but they seemed genuenly hurt by my question. I could tell he was about to run away but I grabbed his arm, I couldn't hurt him like this. "You really think I'm capable of something like that, after....after going through it? No, I wouldn't wish that on anyone, specially not on my heart, on my you."
/// los angeles sky
Do you remember the first kiss?
To meet in such a place as this, you have never left my mind.
Im watching from this place, you stare into the los angeles sky, searching..asking me "why does the heart decieve ?"
You are the only soul, who could have brought me here.
And i pull onto the string attached beaneath my left ribs, one line, connecting me to you
Dont ask me why, i cant lie so easily
Dont tell me now, i only wanna see you lost in that angel sky, those eyes, my heart, i want to live.
Do you remember, the words i spoke then?
What treasured memories do you hold of me when i was younger, i cant fly as high as i used to.
You will never leave my side, i understand that completely.
And i pull the string attached beneath my lower ribs,one line
Connecting me to you
Dobt ask me why, i cant lie so easily
Dont tell ne how, i only know your eyes, lost in that angel sky, those eyes, my heart, i want to live.
I want to live with you beneath that los angeles sky.
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