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// It comes back to that night.

"Two people who constantly fight and are unable to communicate with eachother let alone, love eachother; should not be together."
What is wrong with people, and why is it that after coming to the three realizations they continue to live together? Is it out of duty or guilt? I wonder, because this is the constant relationship I have witness for the past years of my short life.
I used to only drown myself in foreign rock music to drown out the arguments but they repetative and carry no weight as to why they are fighting to begin with. The empty arguments tug at my heart because I am unsure of what it means, and when it will escalate. I want to tell them to leave eachother alone. but they don't listen to me, maybe because I am a product of that, but in any case, I just play my part. I have gotten used to beating's after school, because she's off to work and they probably just had a fight, the constant anger in me is unable to break way and when those fights begin to fly, I am frozen and can only cry silently as my indeferrance drives him into a rage. I wonder if I will have the will to crawl to my room as I've so often done, if make up will hide the bruises, but all my friends have desserted me now that excuses or hiding it doesn't matter. My ribs are burning and as I struggle to get on the bed they are twisting at me and the pull is like someone is sawing me in half, no not someone I know who has already done that. But the damage is worst than I thought, my sister comes home that weekend and tells them the break is infected, and I am rushed to a hospital, I stay with Artemis for a short time, but it is so short, but for the week I am safe. I remember that time, I really thought I would die, but in the hospital I recieved one gift that saved me, my sister brought my iPod Mini from home, I thanked her and I almost cried, but I did cry later that night when all those songs by Loversoul slowly began to heal me, and repair me, and let me know that there's only so much I can take and one of those days I would have to, 'run away."

The dream is over, and as I awaken groggy and uncomfortable I can see Seiko's frame pacing about the room with her guitar slung over her back and looking for something in my bag. This act is kind of crude so I am risen with a sense to tell her off when I see that she's putting something in there and she quickly hides it behind her and cheerfully says, "Morning Chara-Chi, I thought you were a heavier sleeper," I don't understand Seiko, "Morning, what you up to Sei?" she's shifty but she surrenders the item infront of me, very relunctantly I might add. "It's a secret but, you'll find a new playlist on your iPod, your mission is to find out who it's from, I'm just a messenger don't shoot me," She makes such an innocent face I can't help but laugh and forgive her, but more importantly, a secret? "This is actually kind of wierd, is it from Shou? We were talking about new compositions, but then I guess he'd just give it to me like I asked him to,  why a secret?" Seiko seems boggled over my awareness and then shows off something she gets from inside her guitar bag. A bag of Chocolate covered cookies in cellopane. "Your secret recipe?" I asked not fully understanding, she chuckled and rolled her eyes "It's valentine's day, idiot,  this is supposed to be romantic!" "Ahhh, I get it, wait, romantic? Then this playlist is...?" Seiko seemed to blush and become disgustingly dreamy, she said in a softer tone, "Yes, yes, someone who cherishes you asked me to put it in here, they said that you should meet them and recite your favorite lyric in the list, that will give them a message that you feel the same way,"

[[ It's a memory from early days in Tokyo, they are all living in the company apartments and Seiko and Chara share one, here it is when they are Indies and Seiko is working as a back up guitarist at a club, Chara is a bar tender and Tomo a model, Erin however being a trust fund baby  spends his time playing online games and working on his drumming skills. The playlist she suspects comes from Haruka, but he's dating Nana, so she wonders and she runs into Masake again who takes her out for valentines, but the person looking over her as she gets back to her apartment with roses that withered is Michio.]]

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