"Come, follow me." He took my hand his eyes green still shown beneath his shiny black mask, my heart beat moved my feet for me, and we took off, running behind him, his hand tightly had a grip on me, with every step on the grass was another drum in my chest. The air itself stepped away and let us by, the entire world went by, as I followed him in that darkness, only the moonlight above us, and the shine of his makes or mine casting a glow on the streets or the stones around us. That was my dream, but reality to a vejavu is sometimes so incredibily similar and yet so different, instead of the mask he wore a soft bruise, and his heat beat was the sound of the breaking branches below my feet. We'd been going over a small bridge when a curve came and the car went straight into a narrow hill and a tree, I'd gotten thrown out I wasn't wearing a seat belt, and my arm was very banged up, if it wasnt for a tent that broke my fall, I might've not survived.
Somehow in this place, this dark place I knew nothing could harm me my dress was already a mess, and mud had tracked all over the hem, Haruka looked cleaner than I did even in this darkness I knew that he had been out of the car somewhere near the grass and not the pond. In this forest, I remembering when we got here I sensed something terrible from it, and Seiko's desire to come here, and how Nana had gotten lost inside the woods before, like this with Haruka, and just how I'm looking at him now, and I know she never had a chance, he's too kind and too charming, and now...now I know how I feel about him, again, should I act on it, or am I asking for too much again?
I hadn't the time to get lost in my thoughts, we were almost to the edge of the forest when we saw the car, it was a wreck, it had gone over the bridge, below lay the shallow patch of woods that I thought I had died in. looking at the wreckage I can remember what happened before the violent curve, I had been thrown out of the car but something broke my fall, a tent, covered in leaves, but surely a tent, my arm was badly hurt, but beside that and a bruise on my hip I was fine, I was lucky. I was still dressed in my masquerade dress and mask, I pulled it off and inspected the tent, a fowl smell came from it, I could only guess what lay inside, this was after all, the sleeping forest. I didn't understand it then why Nana ran in here but as we moved more and more into the forest to find a path it became clear that it wasn' white sticks hanging from ropes or covered in withering leaves on the forest floor, many many desperate souls flock in here to do one thing, die. Was Nana feeling so trapped the only way out for her is to just let it all go? I've felt that feeling before, on the ledge, ready to just drop down, embrace my death, and...be grateful that I was able to experience life, even though I couldn't go outside or even if no one fell in love with me, it was okay, just before though I always felt a hand on my shoulder, my Loversoul saved me many times like this, and I feel that that was magic. I was saved by the magic of music, but Nana, all those years ago came here to die, I'm not sure why but music couldn't save her but this planet beside me, he did, and then as I lean against him, my ankle twisted and my arm hurting I hold on to him as we wait for help to come, he's too weak himself to carry me out of here,
Somehow in this place, this dark place I knew nothing could harm me my dress was already a mess, and mud had tracked all over the hem, Haruka looked cleaner than I did even in this darkness I knew that he had been out of the car somewhere near the grass and not the pond. In this forest, I remembering when we got here I sensed something terrible from it, and Seiko's desire to come here, and how Nana had gotten lost inside the woods before, like this with Haruka, and just how I'm looking at him now, and I know she never had a chance, he's too kind and too charming, and now...now I know how I feel about him, again, should I act on it, or am I asking for too much again?
I hadn't the time to get lost in my thoughts, we were almost to the edge of the forest when we saw the car, it was a wreck, it had gone over the bridge, below lay the shallow patch of woods that I thought I had died in. looking at the wreckage I can remember what happened before the violent curve, I had been thrown out of the car but something broke my fall, a tent, covered in leaves, but surely a tent, my arm was badly hurt, but beside that and a bruise on my hip I was fine, I was lucky. I was still dressed in my masquerade dress and mask, I pulled it off and inspected the tent, a fowl smell came from it, I could only guess what lay inside, this was after all, the sleeping forest. I didn't understand it then why Nana ran in here but as we moved more and more into the forest to find a path it became clear that it wasn' white sticks hanging from ropes or covered in withering leaves on the forest floor, many many desperate souls flock in here to do one thing, die. Was Nana feeling so trapped the only way out for her is to just let it all go? I've felt that feeling before, on the ledge, ready to just drop down, embrace my death, and...be grateful that I was able to experience life, even though I couldn't go outside or even if no one fell in love with me, it was okay, just before though I always felt a hand on my shoulder, my Loversoul saved me many times like this, and I feel that that was magic. I was saved by the magic of music, but Nana, all those years ago came here to die, I'm not sure why but music couldn't save her but this planet beside me, he did, and then as I lean against him, my ankle twisted and my arm hurting I hold on to him as we wait for help to come, he's too weak himself to carry me out of here,
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