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// "Just let me go."

It was too good to be true.
Impossible. Unprecedented. Unreal. A lie.
I opened my eyes, surely last night was a dream, but there was the sight I had longed for, and that warmth, that even after all these years is so eerily familiar to me, and could never be filled by anyone else, no matter how much I wanted it to be. "Saturn," the words were like a breathe escaping my mouth, but he gently inhaled in and out  the soft morning breeze tousling his long hair across his face, some of it bruhsing against my cheek, and the tickling sensation let me know I wasnt dreaming. "My Saturn, How?" I must have repeated that a few times, my heart didn't know what to do, last night I thought I might have died for sure, this felt too real, and here I am next to the universe I thought I lost to a black hole, where have you been? What you done witout me in your life? Did you fall in love again? Why has it been so long? I want answers from you, I want to know everything you did and everywhere you went without me knowing, I can't be still until I know.  That desperation hit me again like last night I held on to him tighter and I suddenly felt his arms pushing me back a little, "not so tight darling," like candy, soft candy, a sweetness inside that voice, and just the mere joy of it made my eyes water and my heart melt.  i looked up to him and pressed my nose against his, like last night, he did this to me.

Like so many nights before, I had walked out to beach, down the path with the long tall grain fields over look the ocean, down that road on the cliff was where Haruka's Memorial was, his grave, really only containing the pieces of his jacket they recovered from the site of tsunami, it was found about 15 miles away, it caught the attention of a relief worker who was also a fan , and knew, only one jacket like this existed in the world, it was shredded nearly, but the pattern and the contents of the pockets that were still in tact made it even more a solid case, Haruka 

[Author's Summary;
Haruka has been in a comatose state these past 17 years, after Haruka disappeared in the tsunami he washed up along with many others along the coast of a local island not far from kyuushou, he would have been dead but when a rescue volunteer saw him in the water she took him to the small clinic the little island had there they didn't know who he was and he was there for a few months. While this happened Charlotte and the rest were looking for him and taking care of Zetsubou their activities were suspended since a lot of thigns in Japan went to shit, in the words of Seiko "It was like the end of Japan." Two months after the incident, the company decided to throw them back into a tour, at thsis time  Haruka had been found and the first person contacted was Saga, according to his lawyers who were also looking for him Saga had power of atourney in case he was in a vegitative state, but that Saga would decide to keep him alive or not, if he refused this to give it to Shou, which he did. Shou  decided to keep him a live and as to Haruka's wishes let Charlotte believe he was dead so that she could move on with her life. unkowing to him when the search for Harua was called off and Saga staged the crew finding his jacket torn and shredded

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