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Chapter 26 : Ameri

I checked my phone today, two messages from him.
"Morning, wondering if you thought about what I said the other night, don't worry I'm in no hurry."
the other read : "Lunch today?"
I brushed my hair before I answered, Zetsubou Nation has a morning radio hosting gig, me and Tomo that is, but that will be over by 10, and I'm nervous about what will happen after...what would he think of me who just last night the media spotted at my old Apartment complex just as Masake was also there with that woman, I didn't know he was there I went to get some stuff I was missing and happened that they got another place just above my old one, or old one, jerk. I wonder if he's...worried?  I got to the lobby and waited as Emily pulled the car around, Tomo was just joining me, I greeted him with a hug and he squeezed me, 'come on, let's go wake people from their slumbers" I laughed and agreed with him, we got into the car headed towards the station.

Author's Note:
In this chapter charlotte runs into a friend she made a few months ago Ameri, the one she met at Teru's Birthday party,  she's a mainstream and very popular pop star who's style is a bit indie, after they both get done with their jobs for the day they decide to hang out the rest of the day and Ameri tells her about breaking up with ther last boyfriend because she just didn't see him accepting her life, and if things were going to be that way it's better for them to go their seperate ways. After Charlotte tells her what's been happening with Haruka Ameri tells her that she's just being too protective, that from what she hears Haruka is eager to love her, but she's not letting him, and that's she's too worried about other people jugding her if she begins to date him too soon after just being engaged. Charlotte is still unsure, a few months later Ameri sends Charlotte a song, that's going to be on her next single,  during this time Charlotte is still not with Haruka beacuse of the same issues,
and it's her telling her to not be afraid to fall in love with him

"C.

Those words inside your head, put to rest all those fears
whatever you hear from anyone, you walk on
where ever your feet lead you to walk on
it doesn't matter if the rain is trickling down, go on
the light at the end of the tunnel is beautiful, you'll see

the happiest moments in life doesn't come easily and mean much more
the scariest moments we face are easier if someone is by our side

Now you stare in that mirror, and say "you're not good enough"
taking away the negative, tell me what do you have left?

Whatever you see in those paper, ignore it
where ever you once felt pain, ignore it please
What ever you thought was once a game, it's rules don't always apply, you'll see

Now you run towards the light, go on, you won't regret it once
knowing that flame in your eyes, I know you'll shine bright

Whatever you hear from anyone you walk on
where your feet lead you to walk on
it doesn't matter if the flashes of light blind you, go on
the warmth at the end of the tunnel is beautiful

The happiest moments in life don't come easily, and will mean much more to you
the scariest moment you'll face, will come easier if you let him by your side.
You'll see"


Ameri admits to her that she wrote about her relastionship with Haruka because she really wanted to get across to her but she wouldn't listen to her, so she wrote a song hoping that it would finally get through, before the song went on the air, it really gave Charlotte courage to trust her heart and let Haruka into her heart.

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