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The love of my life.

"Haruka."
The flash went off, my eyes blinded for a second, the green and blue and yellow shot right through me and I focus, my retinas still fighting the burst.
He lets the camera hang from his neck, that face. still hurting, he still wont let me in, he still denies this love. I can't.
I grab his arm and pull him to me. He denies it still, pulling away, weakly, I over power him and pull him closer to me. "I don't... Chara, please, ,I can't deny you..."
But I've had, "Enough."
"I'm trying to see this from your point of view, and  I can't. I want you, I love you, you are me."
"You're everything, I died, when you did. I'm breathing at last, aren't you still inlove with me, the way I am with you?"
"I love you, but in ways, I can't remember, I know I lived a life with you, but I don't know it. I know you're everything to me, but not knowing that, scares me, that I'm so blinded by you, that I'm scared of the depth of the things  I can feel."
“We came from nothing…do you remember that? The summer nights in the City? The way you saved me in Pars?When our princess died…do you remember that night? Is it a blur? Am I a ghost you can’t escape from now?”
He froze, and looked away off into the distance, I put my hands on his arms, “Look at me,” he did, a sad look in his eyes, I remember them so well…some kind of guilt inside of them.
“I remember pieces, fragments of memories, almost like they didnt happen to me but someone told me and I’m using my imagination to fill in the gaps. I wish I could remember everything the way it was.”
He started to cry, I just stared at him, unsure if I should comfort him, I asked if it was okay to embrace, he shook his head. “Not now please,”  Haruka wasnt like this at all, he would always want to be held when he cried…I remember him telling me how cold you mother was after your father passed.
I always made sure you knew I was here for you, “okay,” I muttered, I just wanted you back in my arms, the place you’ve been missing from this whole time.






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