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//he became the sun.

There were things about Los Angeles that I loved, living with crazy seiko who loved to paint on the brick wall and make instant foods was fun for me, Tomos constant sleeping waiting for his shift at the Hollywood cemetery was comforting I studied at work when t wasn't busy but I wasn't hitting my assignments and my sister was worried. The thing I didn't like about Los Angeles though was that Harris didnt live here he was still living in long beach because his college was full on dorms, so he took the metro here every day sometimes his car he had a very nice Volvo, I wonder if he has money not because I want it, but because I feel embarrassed and somehow below people with money but unlike those girls that made me feel awful about myself and my household income Haruka has never given me that vibe, I wonder what it is and does it have to do with the tightening on my chest when I think about him, I feel as I'm passing a big piece of bread that is stuck inside my throat and it hurts not so much but slightly I hunk it's getting worse day by day
One day I think it was a Tuesday, I was working on some insane math equation and a hand came front behind me and he explained as he solved it for me, "q is the negative infraction that you need to achieve by dividing both z & x after you get them decide them by q and that will be the solution. " he as so close to me it was strange "thanks, " he smiled " can you get me some change, Chara-chan?" He handed me a 20$ bill and I broke it into 5s And 10s I handed it to him but he didn't move. I was about to ask him but then he spoke. "You're cops Chara chan here I am and you don't even say how much you've missed me," I laugh a little "you make it seem like I longer for you, you washing?" He nodded, "I just moved

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