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// Just holding your hand.

The back gat was open again, I decided to go through it as I passed the alley instead of going in the front door, with more than likely would have some homeless man's urine all over the stump by now. The back gate is usually closed, but as I walk through it I see that someone is holding it, and it's Haruka. He has very plush scarf on and a black buttoned breast jacket with red accents, he's wearing his work jeans and Docs and ear muffs, I noticed them as he greeted me. "Hey,"  I bowed my head in his direction, the chilling  wind not letting me talk properly, clattering I manged, "H-Hi, Y-You goin-ng to work-k?" he nodded, "No, I just got back, Chara, you're freezing,"but my clattering had worried him and took his scarf off and put it on me suddenly and we went inside through the back door. It lead up the corridor, the heat from the inside began to warm me instantly specially my left hand, it was warm it felt good. However this wasn't the bulding's heat, it was something else, then I noticed that Haruka was holding my hand, when did that happen? He wasn't removing it but instead brought me in closer to him we headed towards the elevator, he looked over and grinned. "You feeling better now?" I nodded, "I was worried you might really be a chiller and might need to take much more distractions

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