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//"You're giving me too many things,lately"

The pictures were clear before her eyes,  and mine, as of tomorrow, everyone will think of us as the traitors of Soundbell Entertainment. unfortunately, we will have no favors from the media because of Nana, and because Chara was photographed during her fight with Sayu. She held the paper tightly i thought it might dissolve in her hands under the pressure of her perfectly manicured grey and yellow nails, but she began to shake. "Chara, don't look at that." I threw the paper down, but she was still in a bit of shock, a lost expression on her face ,shaking her head she looked up at me a lost soul, "What does this mean, Haru,what's gonna happen to all of us?" her fear was breaking my heart, I took her in my arms then before she had a panic attack. First, I need to calm her down, "We're going to be alright, just wait, they can't throw us in jail or anything," her head jerked up, "Can't they? Isn't it like, illegal what we did?"
"What did we do?"
"On that video it looks like we're changing our own contracts, it looks like we're cheating the company, but...no one knows what we know," I saw a a silver lining there, "Exactly," but she didn't see anything except the  fine details of my jacket as she buried her head in my chest, I petted her hair then, but she seemed to be freaking out all over again, I need to calm Chara down before we can handle this situation. "Chara-Chara, do you trust me?"  She didn't answer, too busy crying, I decided not to push her and just tell her what I was thinking.
"Do you remember when we lived in L.A. before we went out and we watched those korean dramas at your job before you got off?" she nodded, "yeah," "Well, do you remember what happened when a bad guy tried to frame one of the protagonists?" she suddenly stiffened and came back up, "What are you getting at, we're the bad guys?" I shook my head and flicked her forehead, I did this often to help her get her thoughts together, "ahh," "Sorry hon, but think about it, we've been framed, and we did nothing wrong, if anything we're the protagonists, that means things have to work out, but we can't give up, we need to be strong and stick together, all of us," I scanned the room, our apartment isn't safe, every paparazzi knows where we live, if we're going to to this, it needs to be somewhere no one can bother us. "First, we need to rally the troops maybe they have ideas already. She nodded and quickly took out her phone, "I'll get my people, you get Glorious and Sato," I hesitated then, and she did as well, "Nana," she said, sullenly and looked at me, "I'll handle it," but in her condition, I knew it wouldn't be wise,I shook my head in disapproval, "No, I think I should, I think that would be best." She gave me an expression I know quite well, because I've caught myself in a mirror when I had those thoughts, 'I don't want you near her,' but I kissed her forehead quickly hoping she would understand , she gave a nod but looked away, "okay." Somehow I knew this would bother her always, but after the print of her and Sayu fighting, I don't want to risk another incident ,besides, I've known Nana for three years,she is similar to my planet, so very similar. I wiped the tears from my planet's face, "Alright, get dressed, we can't look like a couple of hobos with something to hide." I did my best to smile for my planet, and with the small gesture I saw it , the rare thing that set my soul aflame, her own smile.  She mouthed the words to me,"thanks," tearful still , I knew she would cry again after I left, but I let it go and she escaped into the bedroom.  I was awestruck for a moment, it's been happening a lot since our relationship became official, or as she calls it, went public. I've let myself get trapped in these moments of worship towards her, somehow I feel...complete when I awknoledge her like that. I wonder if even knows, but right now, there are other things that she knows, if we don't do this quickly and carefully we will all never recover, but first I had to take care of the Ace, Masake.


// The water was cold, it pinned on my skin that morning, and things were already terrible. I quickly jerked the 'hot' button, and once again i cursed at these damn Japanese Shower heads that are so confusing to me still. While I miss my western knobs, and while I massage shampoo into my scalp my mind returns to what just happened. West AkiyaTV, announceed breaking news that Glorious Jane, Rikku Tsunde, Mi:Chellin, Zetsubou Nation & Xacto broke their contracts with Soundbell entertainment by breaking into the master file and changing the terms of their contracts. No doubt we were all looking at our contracts, yes that was true, but we didn't change anything. The fine print on our contracts with Soundbell were sketchy since we moved from Soundbell from Kuzorock, but after Kuzo went under, Michio got word that Soundbell, was taking PR coverage, and so he signed us up for Soundbell, the rest of the bands had similar expiriences, and glorious had just become independant after five years under Carnival,



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