// "I get it, now, I finally get it."

I found out something today I didnt know before because Haruka lied to me about it, I had been his first. Not his first girlfriend, that was Machiko Sandoru in third grade, whom as I recall him telling me always wore green and one smacked a boy that teased him. While I was going through my own personal hell of regret and emotional betrayals, Haruka was opening his heart to me for the first time since L.A., sure were friends in front of everyone else, but when we were alone it was hard to just forget," Hard to forget the first person I slept with, hard to forget my first love, and hard to forget the first person I inviting to live with me, I was a step away from asking you to marry me," I wondered then what stopped him, beside me turning 17 and his departure into rockstardom so I decided to swallow down those questions and share with him as well as we looked at me... with such... well, love.
"You were everything to me in those departments as well, but also, the first person i trusted entirely, it was scary for me, but I'm glad I did.