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// "I need to guard her... or they will eat her alive."

It was early, but he wanted to meet me at a time when no one else was around, it was strange too, the tone of his voice, the sense of fear I sensed coming from him....it unnerved me, and I was nervous as well.
Three A.M. came, and I got his call just as I opened the door to the studio. No one would think this was strange, he was famous for rehearsing early, and so was I for staying overnight.
"Haruka, I'm glad you came."
"Masake, " I bowed my head to my old friend, and got straight to the point after I heard the soundproof door behind me click.
"What's this about?"
He took a deep breath and handed me an envelope. It had three letters in them, from Asami.
They were threats to Chara. Asami has a past with the Yakuza, being the alleged daughter of a famous gang boss, and now she's decided to take Masake back, if he doesn't agree to this relationship she will use her influence with her power to crush Chara's career just as it's beginning to rise.
She's including pictures of me with her in Los Angeles, there's pictures of her and Michio, her and Shou. She writes that "These will be used against her, dont bother burning them I have the originals, her career will never launch."
It's something unknown here, we were friends,....that's the story. "If this gets out...."
"Help me."
"How?"  I couldnt believe this, Masake, was my friend, but he does love Charlotte, as much as I do, and it hurts me to admit it, but I dont want to help him...not when she's so happy right now.
"I can't do this,....I can't hurt her....but this news...I can't let it get out either."
"I don't want go back to Asami....but I don't want Chara to be hurt, there's no way we can even be seen going into that groups area to secure these originals, its just not happening, it's just...I don't know what to do Haruka, you're the only one I could ask about this...because you love her too, and I know that."I was frozen, that very admittance that I also love Chara, it being open like this...was surreal, because I know in her heart of hearts whose smile makes her melt."Yeah...I love her, but she loves you."
"She does, but she wont for long, I know she has a talent that's rare. Like me, I nurtured this talent I had, and I found greatness in it, I'm thankful I didn't have scandals and very good fans, but Chara...she's just beginning to take charge of her voice, and it's the best voice I've heard in years, I can only do this for her, I can't give her a future as long as Asami is involved...and Asami will always be involved." I had lean against the wall now, his pacing was making me freak out and I recalled Chara's face when she found out about me and Nana. I don't want that. I can't protect her from Asami either...or can I? "What's your plan?"
"You'll help me?"
"No. I'm helping Chara."
"That's alright by me, I'm sorry, I didn't know she was yours, but it wouldn't have mattered, I think you know why."
"She's a planet, it's impossible not to fall for her with such strong gravitation, and her horizon glows beautifully, you want it to burn you alive with all that fire."
"Her smile though...makes you jealous she shares it with the world,"
"It's worse when she laughs, isn't it?"
"It is...but when she sings..."
"She's everything."
there was a pause, then Masake took a deep breath and told me his plan.
It was a process, maybe two months...maybe three. No more than three. This upcoming tour of his would be his big move, he will hurt her, badly.
I will be there to pick up the pieces, I'm hoping there will be some left, "Chara's very fragile...very."
"I know that, her soft spot is her father. I wont go there,"
"Don't get physical either, she will regress to the abuse."
"OK, I think I know what to do, it'll tame Asami as well, but Chara will really hate me."
"I think I know what you mean, I'll make sure she's ok."
"Thanks, don't ever tell her, not even if you break up, or if Asami changes her mind, I don't ever want her to know we had this conversation."
"She wont, ever."

I took my leave first, that day, four months have passed since then, and now Chara sleeps on my bed, sometimes she holds her belly, and recalls the baby they might have had. I wonder were we would be if Aasami had never threatened Masake, but I don't think I could have done that, even with Nana breathing down my neck begging me to help her, I was cold, and chose Chara instead, only to have her change her mind about me. I'm working on my single, since Shou's revelation, we've had to decide what we want to do, I still want to do music and with Chara's encouragement and sme friend, I've decided to launch a new project with Saga, Riki will also join us and a new more outcasts, the Horsehead Nebula, father would have been proud, this is heavier than our previous stuff, I show Chara my lyrics and she helps me with the chorus. I surf the internet to look for Shou's new project and see that Masake's "secret wedding" was held yesterday in Okinawa. I look over to the bed, sleeping...I wonder how this will affect her. I pet her hair, she rustles and coos, those mannerisms I've missed I will always regret leaving L.A., but I don't regret her being here right now.

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I wanted to make Masake a grey character.
I had initially made him kind evil, being drug addicted, and abusing Chara, Chara staying with him and leaving him only after he wants to Marry her and keep Asami as a lover. This storyline changes, because after Haruka dies I want Chara to be with Masake again, I want her to have closure as to why he hurt her, I want them to be together because their love was really blind, he fell in love with her talent, she fell in love with his talent, they were very perfect for each other, but it just wasn't meant to be with them. Haruka and Chara seem to be in the same wave capacity, they are both fragments, and I feel that together they really become one heart, a complete person. I think this is true love. 

Masake & Chara = star crossed
Haruka & Chara = True Love.


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